Friday, May 18, 2018

The Sins of my Father

This past year has put into focus something that I was a little fuzzy on for 26 years. February this year marked the 26th year after I had a dream that went like this: I was walking into the front room of a house and when I got inside I saw my mother standing there. She was in the blossom of health and looked to be about 35 years old. I was in shock as my mother had died 4 years prior at the age of 58 and was very ill from liver failure. I said to her, " Mom, how can you be here. I saw you dead in the casket!" She very solemnly said, "They tried to pierce my hands for the sins of my father but I said, 'No!' and rose up out of that casket." I was puzzled by her response but I then with great excitement told her I was getting married. Her face lit up, she hugged me and kissed me on my cheek and said, "I am so happy for you! Come see what I am going to wear to your wedding." We stepped into the next room and she was wearing a beautiful, floor length silver gown. I stared at her in awe and began to think to myself, "Since mom is wearing this silver dress, my wedding colors should be red with silver accents instead of red with gold accents." Then I stepped into the next room and my mom was gone and I was planning my wedding. I thought, "I have to make all the arrangements of the cake, flowers, and invitations and I only have 2 weeks!" When I woke up out of the dream, I was puzzled by it all except the part of me getting married as I was single and really wanted to be married and loved the part of mom being so happy for me!

As time unfolded it became clear to me that this truly was a prophetic dream given to me by God. I was puzzled by the wedding colors as I had never thought of using red and silver. When I would day dream of my future wedding, I would think about mixed Spring colors and daisies. The year before I met my husband, I came to the understanding that the wedding colors of red with silver was a Russian Wedding theme and in Russian royalty it was customary for the mother of the bride to wear a long silver dress. That year I knew it was the year I was to meet my husband. At the end of that year I went on a 2 week missions trip to Russia. In January I signed up to join with a group that was going in July. Two weeks after I signed up and put my money down, I began to get to know my future husband. He was not going on the trip but he was attending the church that I worked at. He worked for a party event planner. When an event was over, she would give him the left over flowers that were still beautiful and he would bring them into the church office for everyone to enjoy. When he would bring in the flowers , I would start to chat with him. In July of that year, 6 days before I left for Russia, he called me up and asked me out. We dated for a year and then got engaged the following July and were married December 14th. Our relationship started right before my 2 weeks missions trip and we were married 2 weeks into December, so the closing statement of the dream made sense of only having 2 weeks!

After all that was fulfilled I still puzzled over the meaning of the phrase, "they tried to pierce my hands for the sins of my father."

This year I have come to the conclusion that my mother was speaking of her father. How I came to this understanding was through 2 gifts of information. One, my sister gave me my parents letters that they wrote to each other when they were separated for a month, as she was visiting her father and other family, when they were dating shortly before they married. Two, my niece sent me some family history about my grandfather's father and grandparents. These 2 pieces of information filled in the gaps in what I already knew about my grandfather.

My grandfather was a very moral man and hard working, even called himself a Christian but according to the testimony of my mother, he did not know God. My grandparents on my mother's side were both dead by the time I was born. All I knew of them were what my mother told me and my siblings, through stories of her life. My mother was the youngest of 9 kids and a five year tag along at that, so her parents were in their 40s when she was born. She had the benefit of being the last child and spending time with her folks when life was much slower as they no longer lived on a farm and had a big family to take care of. Her mother had lots of time to tell her stories of her younger life when she was single, the events that lead to her marriage and her early days of child rearing and busy farm work.

My grandmother was a godly person and had spent time seeking God and wanting to know Him as a young person. She didn't want to just join the Brethern Church that they attended when she was 16 and say she was saved. She wanted to know God and know that she was saved. So she spent many nights praying by her bed. The night she gave up after not experiencing anything and told the Lord she would leave it in His hands, she layed across her bed and fell asleep. God gave her a vision of the wind blowing very hard and then she was on a sea of peace and she heard him say, "Lo I am with you always, even to the end of the age." Those were the words that Jesus told his disciples before he was taken up into heaven to comfort them. He would be sending them the Holy Spirit to comfort and empower them. 

Through Grandma's life she was comforted and was empowered by the Holy Spirit. She experienced supernatural healing and protection at different times. She gave up her own plans to follow God's, except in her choice of a mate. She found herself attracted to a young man 4 years older than her in their little Brethern Church that her family attended. He was handsome and outgoing and had the attention of several girls. He liked grandma as a friend, but was infatuated with a beautiful, but shallow girl, who strung him along making him think she would be serious about him but was really looking for a rich man and grandpa was not rich. Grandma stood in the wings of this situation and would go out with Grandpa when he couldn't get a date with his favorite. Grandma's parents were godly people and they did not like Grandpa's behavior towards Grandma. They knew his family, as was common in small farming communities. They knew his father didn't treat him well, spoiling him one time and then harsh and cruel another. They knew he was raised in dysfunction. His mother was a sweet Christian lady but was an invalid due to an illness that left her weak and unable to completely recover. His father was harsh and abusive at times. Knowing all this and seeing how he was treating their daughter like a second string girl, made them give Grandma strong counsel not to get involved with him. They knew he had a problem that ran very deep and didn't want their daughter hurt by him. She didn't listen to the objective and honest counsel her parents gave her and continued on in the relationship. 

Through a series of events Grandpa married Grandma. His favorite girl got engaged to someone else and grandma, his second string, started ignoring him too and started going out with other guys. He got to feeling really bad and losing control of the situation so his fix was to propose to Grandma. Grandma was beside herself with joy, because she had set her heart on him long ago and she was going to prove her parents wrong about him and she would be that influence that would change him and he would be free of his troubles. 

Part of Grandpa's trouble was that he felt intimidated by Grandma, not in her social standing or looks but in her relationship to God. Grandma's best friend, Libby, had had some heartfelt talks with Grandpa and he opened up and said that he was troubled because Grandma had had a deeper religious experience than he. The truth of it was that Grandma had a close walk with God and he did not. She had experienced super natural power in her life and he had not. God and what He thought and desired, was more important to her. What God thought and desired was much lower on the list for him. Grandma thought that all Grandpa needed was some love and encouragement and they would be blissfully happy, both on the same page spiritually.

Grandpa's spiritual state was a choice that he made and could not be made by anyone else, no matter how nice or spiritual they were. He had to come to that choice all on his own. Because he knew about God, but did not know or have fellowship with God, he became powerless to over come sin. He had deep seated, generational sin of anger and in his anger he sinned. When he became angry he hurt people really, really bad. He would sling cruel insults, destroy treasured things, cause physical pain and injury. This was so bad that he told his children as they got older if they seen him get mad to run away from him as far as they could get. When he would cool down, he would feel bad about what he did. The first time Grandma saw this happen in their marriage, even before children, she said something died inside her. Her romantic dream that her love and their marriage could make him change. She realized that she had disregarded sound counsel and was going to pay for it the rest of her life. Thank goodness Grandpa was a moral man and was financially responsible but he would always be at odds with her on spiritual matters. There house was divided. He would attend church, but he didn't want the truths of God's kingdom to come against his choices. If he wanted to hate someone and wouldn't forgive them, better not tell him that God said that He would not forgive those who would not forgive others. Or better not tell him if he borrowed money from his kids and then kept it when he had it later and would not give it back, was stealing. When the conviction of his sin came upon him, he became angry and did not change.

Grandpa's father was an angry and cruel man. I did not know the source of his anger until now. I knew of Grandma's stories of her father-in-law and they were not good. He was very cruel at times and could be selfish and very harsh. Now, I know thanks to my niece's family research. Our great, great grandfather was physically abusive and his wife had problems with sexual immorality and they split up when he was young. So he grew up with pain and dysfunction and he just passed his anger onto his son by unfair punishment and feeling bad and over indulging him later. He was not good to his invalid wife as he should of been. This caused terrible conflict in my grandfather growing up and it made him angry. He had an insane temper that he could not shake.

My mother grew up with this situation in her father, but she did have a godly mother. When mom was a young teenager her mom told her. Don't do what I did. I do love your father and love you children very much. You were innocent in this choice of mine and I tell you these things to save you the grief I have endured. Grandmother was unequally yoked. She wanted mom to marry a man who was making choices to obey God and wanted to know God personally not just attend church and say he is a Christian. A person that was a Christian in name only does not have the power of the Holy Spirit and they are left ineffective to overcome deep seated sin and cannot be used as a conduit of His Spirit to bring godly influence on those around them. Grandma also told mom to listen to her family, that loved her and loved God concerning who she was choosing to marry. Mom took this adivice to heart and did marry someone like that. She strove to obey God by being honest, admitting sin when it happened, humbling herself as her mother did and admitting her mistakes. She also strove to confront others of their sin to try and help them find repentance and a lasting and effective relationship with God. Some people responded with repentance and were benefited. Other times, she was met with anger from people who did not want to repent from practicing sin and they were in the churches being Christians in name only. She was hurt by them and persecuted at times, with cold shoulders, mean looks, and putting her in a bad light when talking about her behind her back, but she never let that stop her. 

After Grandma died, Grandpa lived another 8 years. My folks went to live near Grandpa is his later years. Mom followed in her mother's steps of being honest with her dad even if it meant his wrath. She knew his very salvation depended on it. Grandpa hated someone and he had hated them for years. Mom told him the truth that if he did not forgive this person, he would not be forgiven and he would not go to heaven, even though he was going to church and saying he was saved. In the last few months of Grandpa's life he let his hatred go and he found right relationship with God. Mom woke from a dream one morning that ended with "To be absent from the body, is to be present with the Lord" She jumped up to check on her dad and he had fallen outside on the lawn from stroke that took his life 2 days later.

So my mother's words in the dream that I spoke of at the beginning was from God. She said "They tried to pierce my hands for the sins of my father but I told them, 'No!' and I rose up out of that casket." It told me that the sins of her father, being a Christian in name only, is rendering a person ineffective by not having the power of the Holy Spirit in their life and a person has to say, No, to that and do what God commands, no matter the cost and they will have the power of the resurrected Lord in their life and because of that they will be in the resurrection unto eternal life and be with Him in heaven forever. 

For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it. Matthew 16:25 

Sunday, February 11, 2018

We Choose the Milk We Drink

1 Peter 2:1-3 Wherefore laying aside all malice, and all guile, and hypocrisies, and envies, and all evil speakings, As newborn babes, desire the sincere milk of the word, that ye may grow thereby: If so be ye have tasted that the Lord is gracious.

But what is the best Milk? There Are two types of Milk:

There is the Fresh, Pure, Whole Milk that comes straight from Mother to Child.

Then there is the Kind that comes from cows, goats, and vegetable material, that are reconstituted, and formulated, and become Powdered, Dry Milk that is bought and sold by men.

Which one is Best?

milk n. A whitish liquid containing proteins, fats, lactose, and various vitamins and minerals that is produced by the mammary glands of all mature female mammals after they have given birth and serves as nourishment for their young.

n. The milk of cows, goats, or other animals, used as food by humans.

n. A liquid, such as coconut milk, milkweed sap, plant latex, or various medical emulsions, that is similar to milk in appearance.

baby formula n. An artificial substitute for human breast milk, designed for consumption by babies

formula n. An established form of words or symbols for use in a ceremony or procedure.

n. An utterance of conventional notions or beliefs

n. A method of doing or treating something that relies on an established, uncontroversial model or approach

reconstitute v. To provide with a new structure

v. To bring (a liquid in concentrated or powder form) to normal strength by adding water.

formulate v. To state as or reduce to a formula.

v. To express in systematic terms or concepts.

v. To devise or invent: formulate strategy.

Monday, January 29, 2018

Interesting article concerning aspects of Feminism.

Women Initiate Divorce Much More Than Men, Here's Why
By Douglas LaBier Ph.D.   Psychology Today   Posted Aug 28 2015
Wives report more dissatisfaction with their marriages than their husbands.  
Some new data about divorce and non-marital breakups contains an unexpected finding, and I think it underscores the fact that we're in the midst of an ongoing evolution in what people want and seek in their romantic-relationships.
The study, based on a survey of over 2000 heterosexual couples, found that women initiated nearly 70% of all divorces. Yet there was no significant difference between the percentage of breakups initiated by women and men in non-marriage relationships.
How to explain? I find that these data are consistent with what I and others have seen clinically. When men and women seek couples therapy and then subsequently divorce; or, when either partner seeks individual therapy about a marriage conflict that ends in divorce, it’s often the woman who expresses more overt conflict and dissatisfaction about the state of the marriage. On the other hand, the man is more likely to report feeling troubled by his wife’s dissatisfaction, but pretty much "OK" with the way things are; he's content to just lope along as time passes.
In contrast, I find that younger couples – who are more likely to form non-marital but committed relationships — experience more egalitarian partnerships to begin with. When their relationship crumbles beyond repair, both experience that disintegration. Both are equally likely to address it – and part, if it can’t be healed.
These clinical observations are consistent with what the study’s lead author, Michael Rosenfeld, suggests — that women may be more likely to initiate divorces because the married women reported lower levels of relationship quality than married men. In contrast, women and men in non-marital relationships reported equal levels of relationship quality. Rosenfeld said his results support the feminist assertion that some women experience heterosexual marriage as oppressive or uncomfortable.
He adds, "I think that marriage as an institution has been a little bit slow to catch up with expectations for gender equality. Wives still take their husbands’ surnames, and are sometimes pressured to do so. Husbands still expect their wives to do the bulk of the housework and the bulk of the childcare. On the other hand, I think that non-marital relationships lack the historical baggage and expectations of marriage, which makes the non-marital relationships more flexible and therefore more adaptable to modern expectations, including women’s expectations for more gender equality."
A very interesting article, and here are some aspects sparked by this article, and also the underlying theme:
 Definition of romance (noun)
1 a (1): a medieval tale based on legend, chivalric love and adventure, or the supernatural
      (2) : a prose narrative treating imaginary characters   involved in events remote in time or place and usually heroic, adventurous, or mysterious
      (3) : a love story especially in the form of a novel 
 b : a class of such literature
2 : something (such as an extravagant story or account) that lacks basis in fact
3 : an emotional attraction or aura belonging to an especially heroic era, adventure, or activity
4 : love affair
Fantasy (noun)
1. The creative imagination; unrestrained fancy.
2. Something, such as an invention, that is a creation of the fancy.
3. A capricious or fantastic idea; a conceit.
Indulgence (noun) 
1. The act or an instance of indulging; gratification: indulgence of every whim.       
2. The state of being indulgent.
3. The act of indulging in something: indulgence in irresponsible behavior.
Influence (noun)
1. A power affecting a person, thing, or course of events, especially one that operates without any direct or apparent effort: relaxed under the influence of the music; the influence of television on modern life.
2. Power to sway or affect based on prestige, wealth, ability, or position: used her parent's influence to get the job.
3. A person who exerts influence: My parents considered my friend to be a bad influence on me.
Synonyms: act upon, work, determine, shape, mold, regulate, charm, tempt, affect, bear on, bear upon, cause, do, impact, make, persuade, touch, touch on

Charm (noun)
1. The power or quality of pleasing or delighting; attractiveness: a breezy tropical setting of great charm. 
2. A particular quality that attracts; a delightful characteristic: A mischievous grin was among the child's many charms.
3. A small ornament, such as one worn on a bracelet.
Deceive (verb)
1. To cause to believe what is not true; mislead. .
2. Archaic To catch by guile; ensnare.
3. To practice deceit.
Synonyms: lead on, delude, cozen, betray, lead astray, misinform, mislead, victimize
Antonyms of the word: Fantasy;... Actuality, Fact, and Reality.
Conclusion: Basis for underlying Theme; Harlotry, and the resulting Feminism, that has been created, enhanced, and propagated by Satan.
Men are predisposed to Actuality.  Women are predisposed to Fantasy.
Both atmospheres have their own scope and purpose, and also are essential ingredients of Harmony.  Love balances the equation, and the result is Duty, Honor, and Nobility.  Which creates a fully functional Family.
But both Actuality, and Fantasy create an inherent vulnerability,  this is why God established the Order, to protect the family from Satan's schemes. Which are age old, and can be traced all the way through history to the beginning.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

Speak the Truth to One Another

Eph 4:25 Therefore, laying aside falsehood, SPEAK TRUTH EACH ONE of you WITH HIS NEIGHBOR, for we are members of one another.
In order for there to be Forgiveness, Rewards (Gifts), and Power, there must be Sanctification.
This is the solution to all the questions that today's Christians are asking. But why is it so hard for us to achieve this solution? 
In order for us to understand the answer to this question, we must understand what has happened to the Faith in general.
If I am trying to give something away for free, then there is no hard-sell involved, there is no reason to push it, I am simply just trying to give it away. I do not need to worry about losing something, or not making a sale, in short I have nothing to lose, because I am giving it away for free.
But if I am selling something, then it becomes something different altogether. If I create religious financial agenda, then I need to support it, so I must sell it to those who would believe in it. In other words, one who is selling something, must accommodate the one who is buying. In short, no one is going to buy anything from someone who they perceive as a jerk, or is 'unkind' or 'unloving'.
Since the first century after Christ, men have been trying to fuse the Greco-Roman false religious system with true Christianity, and they were successful to an extent, and all of the various false-christs have come from this fusion, and the format is always the same as it was in antiquity.
In fact the apostles warned this was going to happen, and were trying to counter it whenever they could. But because the Greco-Roman culture has always been religious, immoral, selfishly ambitious, and self-serving, they (The Apostles) had quite a hard time trying to keep false prophets from dominating the common believers with the Greco-Roman false system.
Think about it, if I am trying to sell you something, I am going to act like a salesman, I am going to try and accommodate you in every way I can think of, because my ultimate goal is to make the sale, because I have an agenda. It doesn't take rocket science to figure out what has happened to us.
There are many scriptures in the Bible that mention false prophets trying to sneak in like sheep and lure people away with falsehood so that they can dominate, and feed on the sheep. Jer. 14:14, Lam 2:14, Eze 13:9, Eze 22:28, Matt 7:15, Matt 24:11, Matt 24:24, Luke6:26, 2Cor 2:17, 1John 4:1, 2Peter 2:1-3, Jude 1:4, Rev 2:2, Rev 2:14,15.
These things that I am talking about is why Jesus said: 'you cannot serve God and money', and also: 'freely you have been given, now freely give'. You see, we do not need Temples, and Cathedrals, and Churches, Colleges, and hired 'leaders' in order to understand what has happened to us because 'they' are and were the problem all along.
That's why they have to push 'false-grace' to the believers in order to accommodate them into the false system. Which begs the question: What is 'false-grace'?
In order for the false prophets to accommodate the religious, spoiled rotten, immoral, selfishly ambitious, self-serving culture, they have to purvey, and propagate false-grace. False grace has basically three components: 1. Forgiveness without Repentance. 2. Rewards (Gifts) without Obedience. 3. Power without Sanctification.
The first two are easy to purvey in a socialistic culture like ours, where people hate accountability, and discipline in general. But they have real trouble with the third one, and make a myriad of excuses to cover the Light that it sheds on the false system.
False-grace works great with the Syncretism that has followed the false religious system from antiquity.
Those who would Capture, Dominate, and Feed on the common believers are in reality the 'Nicolaitans' of old, which in fact is just a 'English name' that the translators chose not to translate from the original three Greek words Nikos-Laos-Ton, which actually means: Dominators (Conquerors) of the Common Believers (Laity). In other words those who dominate the common people with false authority, or rather clergy, which Christ said that their version of it must not exist with the true believers.
They (false prophets) are also the ones who 'have gone the way of Balaam, who was a Priest for Hire, and a false prophet, whose end result was the destruction of the people through licentiousness, and immorality.
Those who were the 'Nicolaitans', and those who had gone the way of Balaam, were actually the first century beginning of what would later be called 'The Roman Catholic Church', Practicing the very things that Jesus said the false prophets and false teachers would practice.
There are two main Messianic aspects that describe true believers, equal, and free.
Luther pointed out many negative aspects about the false church, but he was only scratching the surface, and eventually wound up banging his head on it until his demise.
But what he did not realize is that the entire Greco-Roman false religious system was dominating the whole culture, and it still does today. Practicing a religion of financial agenda, false authority, and licentiousness in all of the religious organizations that came from the primary one, The Roman Catholic Church. Even Luther did not realize the scope of the deception, or how the system would twist him into just another false Icon.
One day Jesus was sitting atop the Mount of Olives and His disciples came to Him privately, and He was telling them, 'see to it that no one misleads you'--
Mat 24:5 "For many will come in My name, saying, 'I am the Christ,' and will mislead many.
Now many translators would have us believe from this verse (because of their spacing, and punctuation, which in fact was not introduced until about 500 years after Christ) That we should probably see a whole bunch of people running around saying they are Jesus Christ.
But if you read the verse in the way it was intended to be read, you will see that it is Christ's direct reference to Apostasy. What He was saying is, there won't be a bunch of people running around saying they are Jesus, but there will be a lot of false prophets that are saying Jesus is the Christ and leading many people astray with their false teachings.
I mean seriously, how many people have you seen running around saying they are Jesus? Anybody who did that would be laughed out of the county.
Or do we think that Jesus was actually telling His own Disciples to watch out and don't be deceived by people running around saying they are Jesus?
No, this is a direct reference to Apostasy, just like He goes on to say:
Mat 24:24 "For false Christs and false prophets will arise and will show great signs and wonders, so as to mislead, if possible, even the elect.
Mat 24:25 "Behold, I have told you in advance.
The Greek word which is translated 'false Christ' is 'Psuedochristos', and its primary meaning is 'false Christ' or 'false version of Christ'. Remember He said they would come in His name (Jesus Christ) but they would be false prophets leading 'many' astray, or 'leading' them into error.
Many false versions of Jesus Christ, and many false Prophets of the false versions of Jesus Christ is what we are seeing today in all the religious organizations, which are in the false format that has come all the way from antiquity.
What is the answer to all of this? Jesus said:
Jhn 14:21 "He who has My commandments and keeps them is the one who loves Me; and he who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and will disclose Myself to him."
Jhn 14:22 Judas (not Iscariot) said to Him, "Lord, what then has happened that You are going to disclose Yourself to us and not to the world?"
Jhn 14:23 Jesus answered and said to him, "If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our abode with him.
Jhn 14:24 "He who does not love Me does not keep My words; and the word which you hear is not Mine, but the Father's who sent Me.
In God's economy, there is no room for 'false grace'. God's economy is: Forgiveness with Repentance, Rewards (Spiritual Gifts) with Obedience, and Power through Sanctification.
2Th 2:13 But we should always give thanks to God for you, brethren beloved by the Lord, because God has chosen you from the beginning for salvation through sanctification by the Spirit and faith in the truth.
Christian men be Equal, and Free. Home-Church, and Home-School your families in the Truth, be lead by the Holy Spirit of Truth, and .....
'Speak the Truth One to Another'.

Saturday, December 30, 2017

The Logic of the Order

What is Order? In a Scientific sense, the basic natural progression of the physical universe is from Order to Chaos. This is the basic law of Thermodynamics. Essentially something exists, and operates , and then it does not.
In a Philosophical sense, Order is based on understanding, there can be no Order without intelligence, knowledge, and design. Essentially, Order does not exist without Wisdom, or rather, the ability to utilize true knowledge correctly. True Knowledge is Light, and Darkness is the absence of Light. Therefore existence itself is Ordered, and even the Chaotic appearing things in the universe are maintained by that Order, according to design.
In a universe with physical laws, everything physical Must obey the laws, or it cannot exist, and operate.
This is the basic Order, or 'Foundation' of the framework of the physical Universe that Jesus Christ Created, and He has determined that everything Physical, exists in this atmosphere of extremely high accountability. Essentially: Obedience results in existence. This is the Ultimate Order of the Universe, Physically, Philosophically, and Spiritually.
The result of obedience, is continued existence. The result of disobedience, is death, or rather the cessation of existence.
Jesus Christ gives us a picture of the order of the universe in His parable about the person that builds his house on rock, or sand. Essentially the difference between a person that orders his life according to Christ's spiritual laws, and the person that doesn't. Showing that the Spiritual Universe exists in an atmosphere of extremely high accountability, like the physical universe.
This is why Jesus Christ tells us that 'if we keep His commandments, then we truly do love Him, and we will be loved by the Father, and They will come and make Their abode with us.
The stipulation is obedience, not saying the correct words, or going to the right place, or swinging the incense orb in just the right way.
Here is an example of obedience, that will illustrate the True Jesus Christ in a way that He intended to be perceived:
The first Order of the Universe pertaining directly to Mankind was the Order of Male and Female, or rather 'Marriage'. The Woman was given to the Man as his Mate, and the only thing that could dissolve that would be the death of the Man. The Marriage is therefore permanent in God's Order.
This is why Jesus tells the 'Religious Leaders' that it is easier for Heaven and Earth to just 'disappear' than for one stroke of a letter of the Law to fail'. Then He gives an example of this mandate: Anyone that marries a divorced woman is practicing adultery. Why?
Because to Jesus, the man that is married to a divorced woman is having sex with his neighbors wife, because she still belongs to her first husband, and will until her first husband is dead. This is the true logic of the Order, and it cannot be changed or superseded.
This is a true example of the 'small door', or 'narrow way' that Jesus spoke of. So we see that true obedience would be for that man to remove himself from that adulterous marriage, and repent to Jesus and apologize publicly, and the Lord would forgive him for his adultery, and he would make it to heaven, otherwise he would be judged as an adulterer and sent to hell.
In order for Christ to come to us and make His abode with us, we must encourage and foster an atmosphere of high accountability, otherwise He will not be with us, and He will abase us, as He has done to all the false Religious Organizations.
Do not follow the false doctrines of the Organizations, follow the Logic of the Order of the True Jesus Christ.

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Stumbling Over the Bread Crumbs

Like in the ancient story of Hansel and Gretel, crumbs were used to mark the trail into the forest so that they could find their way out again. The first time they were taken into forest at the behest of their evil stepmother, Hansel used little white stones to mark the way back to their Father's house, but the next time all he had left was bread crumbs, and the crumbs were eaten by the birds in the forest, so they were hopelessly lost.

The importance of the lesson that this old story contains cannot be overstated, especially in this present time. The world is like a dark, dangerous, scary forest that can get you turned around so that you cannot find your way out, like the forest of Mirkwood in the stories by J.R.Tolkien, that forest was dark and angry, and would purposely change to trick you off of the path and doom you to forever wandering the forest to find the path that leads out.

Truth is like bread crumbs, in the sense that it helps us to see where we are, and how we can find our way back when we stray into the dark forest of the world. Some of the paths into the world are wealth, sexual immorality, selfish ambition, materialism, false religion, and science, just to name a few. While all of these paths are extremely dangerous, none of them are as insidious as false religion, and by saying false religion we mean: religious organizations that appear to be genuine, but are in reality false, and corrupt. So for now we will focus on the path of false religion.

Lets talk about some of the bread crumbs that can help us see where we are. The first one is 'Money'. This is a very good one, because the Lord Himself had much to say about it, which helps us to see this one clearly, if we keep an open mind and heart. Money is a neutral thing, which means it can be used for good or evil, it all depends on how you use it, but when does it become evil? 

Money becomes evil when we serve it, which means we are controlled by it, or rather it causes us to compromise our convictions. For example: if my boss wants me to do something that is wrong, I will have to chose between my devotion to what's right, and my need for the money that my boss gives me. The right choice in this example would be to disobey your boss in order to do what is right regardless of the consequences. Even though we need the money to survive, doing whats right is more important, if we would have given in to the boss and done what is wrong, then we would have succumbed to the fear of not getting the money, ergo: we would have been controlled by our need for the money.

That's why the Lord tells us to abandon our love for money, because it can control us. The World, and False Religion will try to convince us that we need lots of money to do lots of good, but is this really true? No it is not true, in fact nothing could be further from the truth. Creating a financial agenda (the need for money) is not scriptural, and the Bible teaches us to go the opposite direction, and practice self reduction in a material and financial sense, in order to focus us closer to what is really important in life. False Religions have always been centered around financial agenda, this is how they get there power, which happens to be the only power they possess, other than the mystique of religiosity, and people's innate desire for sociality.

The propensity for compromise is deeply embedded in the false religious system that is very old. It is found not only with the Pharisaical types , but also the Romans with their Temple Priestcraft paganism. Both were syncretized, or rather blended with the Original Christianity to create the Emperical hybrid, which was prophesied. Babylon the Great, the Mother of Harlots. All of the religious organizations are false in both form and practice, because the architype (or basic structure) is the Catholic Church, which was the original result of Empirical Syncretism.

The ancient Pagan practice (hundreds of years before Christ) was to build temples to the gods, and train the pontiffs (priests) in colleges so that they could run the temples, and all of the social gatherings, holidays, and financial resources were focused around the temple. The only difference now is that we have Judeo-Christian-Pagan hybrids that still practice priestcraft with hierarchical clergy, temple buildings and pontiffs (pastors) trained in priestcraft at the colleges to encourage people to worship their particular false version of Christ. This is called Polychrist Syncretism, or rather "Priestcraft" and it is very very old, and it is definately not Christ.

Have you ever sat in a religious organization's worship service and felt alone or have you ever sat in one of those services and felt like there was something seriously wrong but you couldn't put your finger on it? Well, I know exactly what you were feeling, and I can tell you now that you were feeling the Spirit of the Lord speaking to your heart telling you that it was wrong for you to be there, and you should leave.

If we mention all of the Bread Crumbs like Temple Building, Pastors trained in Colleges, huge financial agendas, hierarchical clergyism, Peddling the Gospel, compromising like: cultural relitivism, marrying divorced women (adultery), mothers working outside the home (feminism), materlialism, disregard of God's Order: Men not making their homes their ministry, and women working outside the home with men, being a bad example to the younger women, also not practicing purity in courting, and living together before marriage.

We can see that the organizations foster an atmosphere of compromise and licentiousness that they are trained to maintain, although outwardly seeming to be righteous, they are not, and are completely corrupt.

Men, your ministry is your home, and you should include your family in all your interests, passions, and recreations. Your home IS your ministry, and your neighborhood IS your mission field. You must work hard and be a good example to your neighbors, this IS God's will for you. The Orgs would have you believe that THEY are your focus of ministry, but that is a lie, and now you know it.

Women, work at home, be a professional homemaker, and be satisfied with the money that your husband makes, homeschool and home church your children, and protect them without being influenced by the fear of deprivation. The Lord will provide for all your needs if you trust and obey. Be a Pro 31.

What else can be said, we have been decieved, used, conditioned, abused, confused, and brainwashed. For hundreds of years people have accepted the status quo simply because it was ancient and practiced in their families, but what does the Lord say: Who IS your family? Those who DO God's will.

Come out, come out, come out, come out, come out. It is time. Remember our Lord warned us about people who would say that you have to go here and there to find Christ, and this is also a Bread Crumb, be lead by them, and do not stumble over them. May the Lord help you see the path.

stoneless temple

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Cracks in the Foundation

Our bodies were originally designed to live forever, never to die, always renewing and repairing itself but after the Fall and leaving of the Garden, not only thorns and thistles were brought into the plant kingdom but thorns and thistles were brought into our physical bodies.  Our body would now not wear out but would slowly stop being able to repair itself.  This disrepair is like cracks in a foundation.  Once the cracks become so large, the building can not stand anymore and it crumbles and falls to the ground just as our bodies fall into the grave.  We have all lost loved ones due to these cracks, as none of us will escape physical death.  Some have developed serious cracks sooner than others and their buildings, physical temples, have fallen sooner that others.

These last few months have been an incredible journey for me going back through the past in the writings of my mother, whose physical body failed at the age of 58.  The writings were a personal journal recording events that happen to her from 1949 when she met my dad until the finishing of the building of their home in 1964.  The other writings were lists that she made and short accounts of God's love and mercy to her through out her life.  My mother struggled with health issues most of her adult life, odd infections, sensativety to medication, weakness at times, a miscarriage, and some birth defects in her children.  She also was seriously ill for 3 years before she died, but most of her illness was a mystery to the doctors.  The doctors could see the cracks in her foundation of health but they didn't know what caused them and the damage was so severe at the end of her life, that there was no repairing it.

About a year ago one of the mysteries of my mom's health was revealed to me.  I found out there were clues in us, her children, her grandchildren and my dad.  Gene mapping was done and it revealed that both of my parents carried a defect in the gene that produces an enzyme necessary for life.  It is the enzyme that makes methylation possible.  Simply put, methylation allows your cells to repair itself and also allows detoxification of harmful elements in the body to be gotten rid of.   If the enzyme didn't work at all, you would die immediately.  Instead it was damaged so that it did not work as well, limiting methylation.  Some people can live a long time with this gene defect as in my father's case where he is 87 years old, but my mom only lived until 58.  The difference is what happened to them and other genetic factors.

When methylation does not happen at full speed, it damages your red blood cell production.  My mom suffered with some level of anemia all her adult life so she was more susceptible to infections.  When she was 25 years old she found out she was allergic to Penicillian, the hard way.  Instead of the doctor giving her a small dose to see how she reacted to it, because she hadn't had it before, he gave her a large dose to combat a bad sinus infection that she had been struggling with.  The result was a horrible allergic reaction that caused her to break out in hives.  My mom said they were the size of hen eggs on her legs and bright red that turned black blotches that stayed for a long time.  Also she experience weakness so that she could not climb a flight of stairs without resting on each step for about a year.  This so worried my mom as she had my two sisters and they were only 2 1/2 years and 1 year old.   She feared this illness would take her life and she would not be able to raise them.  My dad prayed for her and told her not to fear, that God would take care of her.  She eventually recovered.  My folks were poor and did not have health insurance, so they never had the money to have her weakness researched to find out the cause.  I just read recently in an article about Penicillin.  It said that a high dose of Penicillin can cause a drug induced anemia.  The body is adversly affected to destroy it's own red blood cells.  Sometimes this condition is permanent and sometimes temporary.  My mom had quite a struggle because she already had issues with anemia and her body had a hard time building her red blood cell amount.

A year after this struggle with weakness, my mother became pregnant and she miscarried the baby boy at 3 months, but the doctors didn't know why.  Anemia and not enough folate assimilation (yes a methylation issue) can cause the baby to have life threatening defects and die in the womb.  I also learned recently that in the early 1940's the government began to require food to be fortified.  All the wheat products were fortified with artificial folate which is folic acid.  They wanted to help curb birth defects and miscarriage. If a woman gets enough folate in the early weeks of pregnancy the baby will form correctly.  

The food being fortified was great for the people without the enzyme problem, but about 30 to 40 percent of the people would not be benefited by this.  With the enzyme defect, folic acid would be hard to metabolize as it is an artificial form of folate and would take extra steps to make it bioavailable.  Not only would the natural folate metabolization be slowed down even further but the unmetabolized folic acid would have a greater attraction to the folate receptors in the cells and block the folate absorption.  As time goes on the more folic acid a person has the more anemia will increase and homocysteines will build up in the body.  The higher the homocysteine levels in the blood the more inflammation, more prone to infection, the more chance of heart and blood vessel problems, more occurrence of autoimmune diseases, cancer and neurological disorders.  Homocysteines are hard to test for in the blood, as they begin to break down within minutes after the blood is drawn.  So regular lab tests don't show the accurate amount that is present.  A special test has to be done, that is fairly new.  They do know that high levels of homocysteine in the blood cause you to have a high SED rate.  My mom had a high SED rate but never had it researched.  But, back then they would not of known of her genetic problem as this has only been known in the last 10 to 15 years.

Two years after mom miscarried her first baby boy, she gave birth to my brother.  He was healthy but she didn't realized until he was a year old that he was tongue tied.  The thin web of tissue under the tongue knits all the way to the tip of the tongue.  My brother's tongue was tied down behind his lower front teeth.  So he had to have it clipped.  It broke my mother's heart to see his little tongue swollen and he could no longer drink from his bottle.  He just sat and held it and cried.  This is  an easily repaired birth defect that is caused by low folate.  There are more severe birth defects that can occur. 

Fourteen months later she gave birth to me.  Having kids close together is also a drain on your folate supplies.  A year after I was born, my folks began a building project.  They had bought land and lived on it for a couple of years.  They had a very hard time financially as my dad could not find steady work.  So when I was a year old he got a good job working in a plywood mill.  They began saving their money and then got a loan and began building the house that I was raised in.  They did all the work themselves and had a few men help them on some heavy projects that my mom couldn't do and my dad couldn't do by himself.  So my dad worked full time, sometimes over time and worked in the evening and weekends building the house.  Here is a little excerpt from her journal during those years: 

"While Dad was building the main part of the house he worked all the time and lots of the time, six days a week at the mill.  I would say we probably put in 5000 hours on building the main part of the house.  It cost us $7000.00 to build it.  We had never built any thing before in our life.  It was a real challenge and lots of persistent hard work. I averaged putting in about 6 hours a day working on the house.  I had 4 children to care for and we had no fences.  The yard was full of kids from the neighborhood most of the time.  We had a big garden.  I took entire care of the garden and yards.  I canned 900 to 1000 quarts of food each year.  I sewed all of the children's clothing.  I was a very, very busy mother working most of the time about 15 hours a day."

I was so amazed and blessed in my heart when I read this.  My parents worked so very hard to provide a home for us 4 children to grow up in.  My mom worked many long hours and I know did not get her rest like she needed.  For if you do not rest, your body does not have the chance to repair itself and rebuild blood cells.  Anemia gets worse when you don't get rest.  On the tails of one of my parent's greatest joy, a home for their family, they experienced the greatest sorrow, the death of a child.  My mother became pregnant soon after moving into our new home.  During her pregnancy she was diagnosed with very serious anemia.  She went to work eating chicken livers and iron rich food and brought her red blood count up but the damage had already been done.  Before 8 weeks of development the baby's diaphragm did not knit closed and his intestines came up and crowded his lungs.  At birth the doctor discovered that mom had an infection in her placenta (anemia makes you prone to infections).  So the little guy was at about 5 lbs at birth.  This was the days before sonogram and he was not breathing.  So they tried to get him to breath and then discovered his defect of an unclosed diaphragm.  This required surgery, which they performed but they didn't know that a small hole had been made in his lung when trying to get him to breath and it was too much for him to recover from, having low birth weight, surgery for the diaphragm and now the hole in his lung.  So he died the next day.  The diaphragm not being closed is another mid-line birth defect caused by low folate.

After our baby brother's death my mom began to diet as she was the heaviest she had ever been in her whole life.  She slowly cut down, taking out a lot of carbs out of her diet, which meant less folic acid and had lots of natural folate with lots of home grown vegetables and fruits.  We had friends that owned a dairy and would give us the organ meat, liver, heart and tongue.  We had these meals fairly often as I remember them well through my early childhood.  With my mom dropping the weight, eating more natural folate, she got healthy and strong again.  She would have occasional odd infections and some digestion issues but nothing super serious until after we were grown.

She slowed down quite a bit in her mid-40's.  She had trouble with inflammation in her body which lead to her feet and ankles swelling.  She had some serious varicous veins from genetics and having 5 babies.  So we just chalked it up to that.  But knowing what I know now, the folic acid in her diet slowed down the detoxification in her body and when you body has trouble with detoxifying in causes inflammation.  She had to spend lots of time with her feet elevated and walked much slower and couldn't do a lot of activities that required lots of standing or walking.
When mom was 56 she got a really bad cold that turned out to be bronchitis.  One night she told my father that she felt like she couldn't get her breath.  He took her to the doctor immediately and the doctor gave her antibiotics but it didn't faze the infection.  They sent her to a lung specialist and he did a biopsy on her lungs and discovered that she had a viral bronchial infection that had gone down into her lungs.  He said he had never seen that before.
My mom's immune system and liver had been weaken by the years of consuming the folic acid in her food, slowing down the red blood cell production and the toxins building in her body because he body could not detoxify like is was designed to do.  Since antibiotics would not work on the infection that would take her life, they gave her steroids to stop the inflammation and she could breath again.  The down side was the steroids caused cirrhosis in her liver.  Her already weakened liver could not sustain the damage and my mother lost her strength.   She had to be in a wheel chair a lot if any walking was required.  She developed a calcium spur in her hip and the doctor gave her Advil for the pain and inflammation that it caused.  Also a diuretic to help with the swelling in her legs.  These drugs damaged her liver even more and she went into a coma about 6 weeks before she died.  In the hospital they were able to bring her out of the coma and then a liver specialist examined her and interviewed her.  He pin pointed the reason for her coma was her liver.  He was amazed how this happened when my mother recounted her life to him.  She had never smoked or drank and how she had a very good diet of lots of home grown vegetables and fruits.  He said she must of had a genetic weak liver and she lived as long as she did because she ate so well.  Well, he had the genetic part right, but I don't believe it was her liver to begin with.  As a child she was strong and breezed by her childhood diseases with only slight symptoms.  She was born before World War 2 on a farm, so she had great home grown food, lots of unfortified wheat that her mom made into homemade bread, noodles and many other things.  She was a teenager when the government started fortifying wheat.  Then the there was the Penicillian episode which I am sure weakened her liver too.

One month after her hospitalization for the hepatic coma my mom was back in the hospital with kidney failure.  The doctor said because mom's liver was functioning very poorly, she was not getting the nutrition she needed and she was starving to death.  When someone is starving their kidney's shut down.  So medically her case was hopeless and she died in a few days.  That was the end of mom's struggle with anemia that had caused her many health problems in her life.  Anemia can be like a snowball rolling down a hill, one thing leading to another.
I was so sad at my mother's death.  I was still in my twenties and single and felt like I needed her so much.  She was my friend and source of emotional support during the lonely years.  It was so hard to loose her but God helped me through it all.  I learned a lot from her death and it gave me a window into my own health.  In my 30's I began to have struggles with colds and bronchitis hanging on way to long.  So I began taking a garlic supplement and that helped a lot.  I tried to get my rest and I was not having kids, so that did not drain my system.  I did not take birth control pills as I was not married and I was following the Lord.  I found out that birth control pills blocks the assimilation of iron.  I did not drink alcohol which also inhibits iron and folate assimilation.  I ate good as my folks had made sure us kids ate well with a good balance of fruits and vegetables, good meat and carbs.  I didn't drink a lot of soda or coffee.  Soda robs your system of calcium and coffee blocks iron assimilation.  So I was doing pretty good but I was aging and consuming fortified foods with folic acid and taking multivitamins with artificial folate in it.  So I noticed how I got tired a lot easier.  After Rich and I married, I was 42 and I wanted to have a baby really bad.  For 2 years I kept hoping and at 44 1/2 I became pregnant and then miscarried 2 months later.  I was heart broken.  Fourteen months later I became pregnant with our Mary girl.  I was so very tired, diagnosed with anemia.  The iron they prescribed made me feel so horrible and even more tired, I took very little of it.  I did keep taking the garlic supplement though!  With the grace of God I made it through and Mary was born healthy with no defects.  What a miracle that was.  I will always be grateful for that.  I knew I wasn't just lucky, but God had helped me against all the odds.

Just in the last year, I have become aware of my genetic condition and am in awe of how God helped me through it all.  I have learned so much through all of this.  I share this story, to maybe help someone in some way.  If you have some trouble with your health maybe just tiredness, infertility, miscarriage or autoimmune disease or even cancer.  I would urge you first and foremost to serve and trust God with all your heart, secondly have a genetic test done to see if there is something foundational happening in your body make up.  If you have the MTHFR gene mutation as I have, do some diet changes.  Try to stay away from all the folic acid in food and vitamins.  Try making a lot of your own food with unfortified (organic) flour and grow a garden if you can.  Drink lots of water, take a garlic supplement if you can as it if helps with methylation.  Don't drink alcohol and limit your perscription drug intake if possible.  Make sure you get good rest and don't over do.  These things can make an big difference in your health and I can testify that in my own life.  I know the Lord holds our life in His hands and we will live as long as he determines.  So, I am not thinking that I will live to be 120 but I know I have a calling and that is to be a wife and mother and I am older now, 57.  So God has given me some knowledge to help me to accomplish His calling in my life.  All the things that are beyond me, I know He will help me with and even bring a miracle if necessary so that I can finish the race.  I pray that this will in some way help someone, not to beat themselves up with the past, but help them with a better quality of life in the future.